I've made the switch...

I've used LiveJournal for the longest time. Every since I was a sophomore in high school. I post on MySpace time to time to keep people who read my MySpace updated on my life. I had a Blogger account for a long time, but since JM suggested the move so much, I decided to reactivate the Blogger account.

I wish there was a way that I could make my own layout with my own design, but that would require me to learn something, and the only two people that I could possibly learn it from are Will and Matt, but they have enough crap on their plate without having to deal with me.

The Pacer has been stressful lately. Class has been stressful lately. Hell, life in general has been stressful lately. Someone tried to kick in the door to my apartment, so I got a new door. New door doesn't fit and I was locked inside my apartment. It seems like it's been one thing after another this semester, and everything has been beyond my control.

Went to a Halloween party last night, because one of my friends was throwing it. After leaving the party, I realized that I feel lonely and I feel old. Everyone there has yet to turn 21, and I'm turning 22 in a month. Partying has lost its appeal, because I'm no longer 17 and it's no longer illegal. But what really put in a mood was that there was random couples doing random things in random bedrooms and I left sitting in the chair watching a scary movie that wasn't scary. During the night, if their significant other wasn't there, they called them to wish them a Happy Halloween. I don't have a significant other to call, so I called the next best thing, my two co-workers. I felt really shitty waking one up, but damn I was in a funk and needed someone to talk to.

I have a formal to go to in a month, and I haven't made up my mind whether I'm going or not. It would be the same deal except in black tie and high heels, and if I'm going to feel like shit, I like to feel like shit in comfortable clothes. I've asked one of my co-workers to go with me, because we'll have the best time, but this co-worker is not interested in me for one VERY important reason which will remain unstated.

Another reason why I've felt lonelier than usual is because all my co-workers have significant others. Some are serious and some are not, but nevertheless, they all have someone they could call if they wanted to while I'm literally alone in my corner. This post was not meant to be a pity party, but it's turned out that way.

I'm just unhappy with my life in general. It's become empty even though the schedule is quite full. Work, class, sorority, and other things, but it's still empty. Most people in the office look forward to 8:00 p.m., but I look forward to 8:30 p.m. for various reasons. I need motivation, but don't know where to find it or how to get it. I don't think it's senioritis, but just lifeoritis.